I don’t know what to do!
There are days when I feel that way in taking care of my children (and everything else, basically) and I guess that’s a good thing because when my mind is exhausted of finding my own solutions, I turn to Christ for wisdom. (which should be our first option,by the way) Placing full dependence on Him to help me be the mom He wants me to be.
I am grateful for those days when I just couldn’t decide on what medicine to give, what food to buy, or what rules to enforce at home, or when and how to discipline because these are the moments that the Lord is teaching me to rely on Him more.
What could possibly be the best way to raise children than for the mom and dad to draw wisdom, and strength, and patience, and love, and joy from the everlasting source–that is our Lord Jesus Christ and pour it out to our children.
This is why it is very important that we, as parents, continue to spend time with the Lord and His word despite our busy schedules.
God will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: He will guide thee with His eye (Psalm 32:8)
Who needs guidance more than a mom raising another human being, right?
Having our second child a month ago, I must say, I know better than when we had our first born. Some tasks become easier but I praise the Lord for reminding me that even though I gain experience, I am still a human being created to depend on my Creator. Never will I reach a point where I can say to myself “I got everything figured out” and I pray that I never THINK that way.
Don’t get me wrong, I do believe that our experience in motherhood are actual lessons that the Lord wants us to remember so we could do better next time. My point is, no matter how much we think we know about raising children, we must rest in the truth that everything, including our children’s welfare, are in God’s hands and to think that we are in control of the situation is foolishness.
Humility plays a huge role on this as in every other aspect of our life. If there’s something that I want to be known for as a mom, it is not that I’m a successful mom with well-behaved, successful kids someday, not that I’m a smart mom who knows how to keep everything within the budget, not that I’m a cool mom who dresses fashionably or a strong mom who can multi-task. (Believe me, I’m not even close to any of these)
I want to be a mom known for her dependence on Christ alone. I want to be a mom known to be always on her knees begging for Christ to help her bring her children to the knowledge of who He is because she knows in her heart that this is the greatest thing her kids will experience in this lifetime, to know, worship and serve the living God.
I want to be a mom who points others to the truth that ONLY GOD CAN ACCOMPLISH GREAT THINGS IN OUR LIVES.
Nothing that we can boast.
And I pray that even after years of experience in motherhood, my God will still find me on my knees, praying for help.