1 Lo, children are an heritage of the LORD: and the fruit of the womb is hisreward.
4 As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man; so are children of the youth.
5 Happy is the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed, but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate
I must admit, motherhood is not as easy as I thought it would be. I remember my mom telling me, “Pag naging nanay ka na, maiintindihan mo lahat ng pinagdaanan ko” (When you become a mother, you will understand everything I’ve been through)
And she was right. The sleepless nights, the loads of laundry, dishes left on the sink, the need to get up even if I’m sick… these plus more. Motherhood is hardwork.
I remember telling my husband that I don’t want another baby until our firstborn is old enough. My husband, being the kind and loving person that he is, agreed. I felt like I couldn’t handle another baby while baby#1 is still a baby.
I could not even find the time to read a book. If I did (that is, I’ve finished every other chore in the house and our baby is still sleeping) , it will only be a few pages on and she’ll be awake. 😂
But then, I tried. I chose a book that interests me and slowly went through each page. After a month or two, I finally finished it and boy was I happy with my choice. The title is, “Set Apart Motherhood” by Leslie Ludy. I read her other book, “The Set Apart Woman” a year ago and it has been a blessing to me so when I saw this book in Booksale, I had no doubt in my mind that this was the book I wanted to read.
The passage that I posted is one that gave a huge impact in my heart. Here’s what Leslie Ludy wrote about it:
Children are not convenient. Newborn babies are not considerate of their parents’ desire for rest, sleep, quiet conversation, or a predictable schedule. There is no ‘break’, no reprieve from the responsibilites of being a parent. It is always there, day after day,night after night. Unlike almost any other challenge, young children can provide one of the very best training grounds for spiritual and physical discipline. If we are willing to rise up and accept the challenge, our kids can make us strong and fit for the battles we are called to fight in this Christian life.
Our children trained us to stay spiritually sharp, to say no to laziness and weakness, and to do hard things without complaining or arguing. Our children helps us build tensile strength.
Most importantly, I’m learning to depend more on God now that I am a mother. There are so many things that I can’t control, so many what ifs I try to avoid, but the Lord remains faithful and gracious and He is trustworthy.
My child is an arrow for the Lord, she makes me strong in my faith, she molds me to become the mother– the woman God wants me to be. It is not easy but having this perspective gives my weary heart peace. Peace that everything happens for a purpose and the ultimate purpose is for God to get His glory.