“O my God, my soul is cast down within me: therefore will I remember thee from the land of Jordan, and of the Hermonites, from the hill Mizar.
Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me.
Yet the Lord will command his lovingkindness in the day time, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.
I will say unto God my rock, Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?
As with a sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me; while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God?
Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God. Psalm 42:6-11″
A Psalm that stayed close to my heart this month.
This past month, I have been thinking too much of the future that I forget to trust God. “What do I have to do next? (clueless)”,”Seems impossible to get a job!” , “another sudden turn of events, I don’t think I can handle this one!” These are but a few of my sentiments throughout July.
To my dismay, I caught myself several times day dreaming of what’s in store for me in the future and asking, “WHEN WILL EVERYTHING FALL IN PLACE?”, thinking too much, worrying, getting depressed. This is not what God wants, I know that for sure, but everything seems uncertain for me at this point that I dwell on that instead of focusing on what I have to do right now.
You see, I am learning through this experience and by the leading of the Holy Spirit through my devotion, that when you say:
“I am WAITING ON THE LORD”, that doesn’t mean..
“I am going to spend my time thinking about my plans, my desires, and my comforts”
It doesn’t mean…
“I will stay in this situation, I will do whatever I want….until God reveals something to me..”
“I am trusting God for the future and so I will think about how I can honor Him now with the resources that I have, with the ministries that I am currently involved in…”
“While I wait, I will strive to know God more so when the time comes that He is going to reveal His will… I know IT IS HIS WILL and I know that God has prepared me to receive it”
My devotion for the past month (or more) is in the book of Acts.
I remember thinking to myself, “when will this ever end?” “I want to move to Psalms, or Proverbs, or in another NT book” Little did I know this was one of God’s ways to remind to DO SOMETHING while I wait on Him.
Share the Gospel! Every single day, I am reminded to SHARE IT WITH OTHERS. But since I was too engulfed with my sentiments, I never bothered to even give away a piece of Gospel tract. It’s a shame, I know, but I opted to write this down for you to realize that:
When you start thinking of yourself more and more, when you worry too much about your own life, your own plans…. you’ll soon forget the things that should be, in the first place, your PRIORITY.
why go I mourning?
when my God is with me always
His love so binding
Every moment I see His grace
Why go I mourning?
when with God’s Word so rich and true
I hear Him calling
in life’s billows bringing me through
why go I mourning?
When my God tells me to rejoice
my heart is singing
as I hear and follow His voice
Why go I mourning?
when He promised us victory
In Him abiding
soon, in heaven we will be free
Will you stay mourning?
When you know your God is faithful
in His presence you’ll be joyful
“I recommend this book to everyone seeking to know God more and have that closer, more intimate relationship with Him. Nothing is more precious than to enjoy a sweet fellowship with my God. (MORE THAN ANY OTHER EARTHLY RELATIONSHIPS) I was rebuked and reminded that sin can really hurt my relationship with God. There are so many jewels in this book, I couldn’t write it down one by one. It’ll be for you to find out for yourself.”
Call out to LPBC members, this book is in our church library by Sunday, if you want to borrow it, please approach me.
Well, that’s it for July! A roller coaster ride of emotions! Ha-ha! Thank God for His unfailing mercy in molding His children to be more like Christ.